A Perfect Version of Myself

Losing Weight is Hard

Living Without You February 26, 2010

Filed under: Uncategorized — Tara @ 8:32 am

I lost a big fat nothing this week.  And then I kinda disappeared from the internet.

It wasn’t deliberate, nor was it because I fell off the rails and decided to undo all the progress I’ve made.

It’s just that…..my life got really busy.  That’s the lamest excuse ever, but the problem is that it’s not an excuse.  It’s the truth.

I quit my job last Friday, which I was waiting to share with y’all until my company announced it to my co-workers.  I had some interviews a few weeks ago, which I kept on the down-low and I got a new job.  It’s in the same field that I’m currently working in (Logistics), but it pays quite a bit more money.  Plus, I’m….not bored with my job, but not satisfied either.  I feel like I’ve gone as far as I can with my current company and it’s just time for me to move on.  So, I’m moving on.

Between that, getting someone ready to replace me at work, and a few really big projects at work that STARTED this week (I really do have terrible timing), I’ve been swamped.  I’m also house-sitting for someone and I didn’t bring my computer with me.  I went to work an hour early yesterday, stayed an hour and a half longer than I should have and ate a granola bar for dinner on my way to my part-time job.  (Don’t worry, I had a beautiful late lunch with clients and I wasn’t really hungry for dinner)  I also arrived at work an hour and a half early today.

In short, life is nuts, don’t expect me to be around, commenting on blogs and generally being a presence on the web for the next few weeks.

I’ll update after my weigh-in’s for the next little while, but it might not be on Tuesdays.  I’m going to try to get the updates in when I can, but I’m not giving up on my healthy choices, nor am I willing to skip the gym.  Between you and I, if something has to give, it will be my time spent on the net.  A wise choice, in my opinion.


Fourteen February 16, 2010

Filed under: Weight Loss Updates — Tara @ 11:38 pm

Hola, blogland!

I’m down 0.4 lbs this week.  Don’t know why the number is on the smaller side, but it is what it is.  I’m actually sort of excited anyway, because losing 0.4 lbs means something pretty big.


I love it when I get to even numbers!  It means that I take new pictures!!!  I’ll get them done this week (probably this weekend) and I hope to have them on the blog by next Tuesday.  Promises, promises, I know!

I bought the prettiest dress from H&M this weekend.  It’s green with a floral print on it and it looks like something Donna Reed or June Cleaver might wear.  The waistline sits very high and it makes me look super tiny.  At least in the waist.  My boobs on the other hand, look like they might try to conquer Manhattan, but you can’t win them all.  The sales guy who was standing there when I came out to look in the mirror had a ten minute conversation with my cleavage, so I’m guessing not everyone objects to how busty I look in the dress. 

The best part about the above mentioned dress?  It’s a size 14!  From a regular store!  I’ve been a size 14 for a while now, but it’s been hard because I’m in the transition from Plus-Size 14 to Regular-Size 14 (in the USA, I think it’s Womens and Misses sizing?).  The 14’s in Plus-Size have been just a touch too big, but the 14’s in Regular-Size were too tight for comfort.  I tried on a pair of jeans at American Eagle the same day I bought the dress though, and I’m now officially out of the plus sizes.  Woot!  I celebrated by vowing that I would never buy another item from a Penningtons or Addition-Elle EVER AGAIN. 

Now I just have to learn how to shop all over again.  I’m not used to having so many choices!


101 Reasons To Love Being Me! February 15, 2010

Filed under: 101 Reasons To Love Being Me! — Tara @ 8:02 pm

Lillian @ Losing Half, Gaining More has this great list – it’s the 101 Reasons to Be Happy Just the Way I am Today.  I’ve been wanting to make my own and make it available here forever, but I just haven’t found the time.  Today’s the day!  I’m going to give it its own category on the sidebar and update it as I go.  It’s my effort to not only be happier (which I think we could all use), but to start focusing on the reasons/ways I love myself.  So often, I look in the mirror and am not happy with what I see and that’s a darn shame.  I’m starting to really believe all that positive self-talk and think that I’m awesome, just the way I am.  I really hope people don’t think this is egotistical but if they do, I invite them not to read it.  I think this will be good for me!  Positivity, ho!

1.  I have beautiful eyes.  They’re blue, with yellow around the irises and they have really long eyelashes that don’t need mascara.  I inherited them from my grandmother, which makes me feel connected to her in this great way.

2.  My shoulders are wonderful.  They have this beautiful shape and they’re SO narrow.  I’m obsessed with them.

3.  My collar bones are works of art.  Seriously.  I just….love them.  They are sexy, sexy, sexy.

4.  My legs are so strong!  They can carry me for miles and they never seem to tire, even when the rest of me is pooped.

5.  My calves are pure fricking muscle.  They even have muscle on the front of the calf that flexes and looks lovely when I run.  Love!

6.  I have a great laugh!  It catches the attention of the whole room and makes people smile.

7.  My hands are so tiny and delicate looking.  Like doll-hands, but with nicer nails.

8.  I can run!  It makes me so happy to be able to be active!

9.  My smile lights up my whole face. 

10.  I’m a great cook.  Everything I make is great and my friends love to join me for dinner (and not just because it means they don’t have to cook for themselves). 

11.  I will do anything for family and friends.  Need someone to paint your house at 2 am?  I’ll be there with coffee.  House-sitting?  Baby-sitting (this despite not really liking children)?  I’m your girl.  I get great pleasure out of doing nice things for the people I love.

12.  I read really, really fast.  Like, Superman fast!  It’s something I’ve always been able to do and I love it.  I can finish a book in a few hours, leaving me able to read MORE!

13.  I have a great memory.  Elephant-like even.

14.  I have really thick, beautiful hair.  Not curly but not straight, it just has a lot of body. 

15.  I have an hourglass figure.  Boobs, small waist, round hips.  Looks great if dressed correctly.

16.  I am all curves!  I feel so womanly, because I’m round in all the right places.

17.  I feel hot and sexy these days.

18.  I love my butt.  It’s the perfect size and shape, I really hope I don’t lose any weight in that particular area.

I’m going to keep adding more.  Every time I think of some other reason that I’m great, I’m going to put it right here. 

What’s on your list?


Just Try February 9, 2010

Filed under: Weight Loss Updates — Tara @ 8:23 pm

I’m down 2.2 lbs this week.  It was a tough one, I seemed to be starving all week and had to constantly check myself before I attempted to eat the fridge.  Judging by the results, I was successful!

A couple of cool things to discuss:

I’m starting to crave new fitness challenges so I signed up for a 5K run!  It’s taking place on March 10th and I’m torn between being really proud of myself and scared stiff.  I’m running a 5K on the treadmill on a bi-weekly basis but I know that running outside is a whole different animal.  Not to mention that running outside in MARCH, in CANADA is a challenge in and of itself!  I’ll be signing up with a bunch of people from my Weight Watchers group and my uncle has reluctantly happily agreed to join me.  I have a goal to finish under 45 minutes, which is neither fast nor impressive but since it’s the first time I’ve attempted anything like this, I think it’s a reasonable goal. 

Another cool thing is that I’m trying this new thing.  This new thing where I TRY new foods.  I’m an extremely picky eater.  I don’t like my food to inter-mingle on my plate and I have a laundry list of things that I won’t eat (mushrooms, pork, olives).  I have changed so much in the last fourteen months, more of these changes being mental than physical, that I thought I should throw caution to the wind and open myself up to new foods.  This weekend I tried sushi.  California rolls to be exact, which I know that not everyone even considers sushi, but since I don’t like fish, it was a big step.  You know what?  It was delicious!  I had some with crab and some with avocado and loved every bite.  I also tried smoked salmon and enjoyed the heck out of that too!  I was so….impressed with myself!  I’m going to try to find more opportunities to try new things every week, starting next week with eggplant.  I’ve eaten it in the past, but I don’t think I gave it a fair shake so I have stuffed mini-eggplants on the menu.

Wish me luck!


Same Old Scene February 2, 2010

Filed under: Weight Loss Updates — Tara @ 10:23 pm

Tuesday has rolled around once again.  At this week’s weigh in, I lost 1.6 lbs.  It’s incredible to me that I keep seeing losses on the scale.  It’s also incredible to me that, even though my losses have gotten smaller than they used to be, I’m more excited by them.  I am working just as hard (if not harder) for these smaller losses as I did for the bigger ones.  It’s not a feeling I was expecting.

I went to Zumba tonight and only lasted twenty minutes before I had to come home.  I’ve developed another cold and this one has settled in my lungs.  I felt like something was stabbing me every time I tried to breath so I headed home.  I really hope the instructor lets me make the class up next week.

What else is new?  Not much.  Weight loss is a pretty boring business if you ask me.  It’s a lot of routine and hum-drum-edy-ness.

I’ll be back later this week to give some details about my newest fitness endeavor.  I want to get all the details hammered out before I share them with the world.