A Perfect Version of Myself

Losing Weight is Hard

Better July 1, 2010

Happy Canada Day to everyone!  I know you all might not celebrate it, but let’s take a moment to celebrate being Canadian.  It’s all about the Poutine for me, but I’m sure there are other things that make us proud besides french fries covered in fresh cheese curds and then smothered in gravy.  I can’t currently think of any, because I’m busy drooling – but rest assured, they’re there.

As I’m off from work, I thought it might be fun to make another list of the things that have changed – expected or not – since I lost almost half my body weight!

1.  I discovered that I’m bowlegged the other day.  Not severely, but there is a definite curve on my inner thighs when I put my knees together.  I guess my thigh fat just kinda covered it up before but now that the chub is receding, I can see that I have more in common with my one true love than you would think at first glance.

2.  My migraines have disappeared.  Now, I know that other people may not have experienced this (in her case, it’s the opposite) but for me it’s been the longest time in my life that I’ve ever gone without going blind in one eye and losing all sensation in my hands and face before the blinding pain would set in.  It’s been two years in August and I’m even happier to report that my doctor and I recently made the decision that I could be weaned off my preventative meds.  I’m drug-free!

3.  I look cute in hats!  I used to think that I had one of those heads that didn’t suit a chapeau but I was WRONG!  Apparently it was just my massive pumpkin face that led to my no-hat rule.  Now that my face is much thinner, hats look super cute on me.  Especially since I just wacked all my hair off into a short pixie cut.

4.  I stopped snoring!  I had been told that I snore, but I have no idea that it was weight related or that it had gone away until I went away on a girls weekend in November and was told that it’s no longer the case (although, for the record, I apparently talk and laugh in my sleep).

5.  I am an hourglass!  I always figured I was shaped like a rectangle (only with more lumps – do rectangles have lumps?) but it’s not true!  I am curved at the bust and then I am tiny through the ribcage and waist and then there’s a jut back out at my hips.  It’s absolutely lovely and it makes me feel like a WOMAN.  Rawr!

6.  I never noticed how difficult it was to “wipe” myself until it wasn’t anymore.  I don’t remember struggling, but now my hands reach behind my back better (or something)?  I don’t care what it is, it’s just nice.

That’s all I can think of for now but speaking of change, anyone who’s particularly eagle-eyed may have noticed a change on my Stats page.  I’ve amended my ultimate weight goal.  When I selected 145 pounds as my end number, it was a number so far out of my frame of reference that I kinda just picked it.  It was ten pounds below my highest acceptable BMI weight for WW to give me lifetime membership and it seemed like a good number.  But now that I’m closer?  I don’t really need to lose that much more weight.  The fact is, the things I don’t like about my body (my stomach pooch or my breast sag) are not things that are going to go away by losing ten extra pounds.  They can really only be fixed surgically (something I’m not sure about just yet).  I would really like to stop paying WW to weigh me each week.  I think 155 lbs is a much better goal for me.  I will be at a healthy BMI for my height (I’m 5′ 6″ tall) and I think I will be happy there.  I may change my mind somewhere down the line, decide I want a bit of a “cushion” between me and “Overweight” but for now it’s making me happy to see that I only have about ten pounds to lose.



101 Reasons To Love Being Me! February 15, 2010

Filed under: 101 Reasons To Love Being Me! — Tara @ 8:02 pm

Lillian @ Losing Half, Gaining More has this great list – it’s the 101 Reasons to Be Happy Just the Way I am Today.  I’ve been wanting to make my own and make it available here forever, but I just haven’t found the time.  Today’s the day!  I’m going to give it its own category on the sidebar and update it as I go.  It’s my effort to not only be happier (which I think we could all use), but to start focusing on the reasons/ways I love myself.  So often, I look in the mirror and am not happy with what I see and that’s a darn shame.  I’m starting to really believe all that positive self-talk and think that I’m awesome, just the way I am.  I really hope people don’t think this is egotistical but if they do, I invite them not to read it.  I think this will be good for me!  Positivity, ho!

1.  I have beautiful eyes.  They’re blue, with yellow around the irises and they have really long eyelashes that don’t need mascara.  I inherited them from my grandmother, which makes me feel connected to her in this great way.

2.  My shoulders are wonderful.  They have this beautiful shape and they’re SO narrow.  I’m obsessed with them.

3.  My collar bones are works of art.  Seriously.  I just….love them.  They are sexy, sexy, sexy.

4.  My legs are so strong!  They can carry me for miles and they never seem to tire, even when the rest of me is pooped.

5.  My calves are pure fricking muscle.  They even have muscle on the front of the calf that flexes and looks lovely when I run.  Love!

6.  I have a great laugh!  It catches the attention of the whole room and makes people smile.

7.  My hands are so tiny and delicate looking.  Like doll-hands, but with nicer nails.

8.  I can run!  It makes me so happy to be able to be active!

9.  My smile lights up my whole face. 

10.  I’m a great cook.  Everything I make is great and my friends love to join me for dinner (and not just because it means they don’t have to cook for themselves). 

11.  I will do anything for family and friends.  Need someone to paint your house at 2 am?  I’ll be there with coffee.  House-sitting?  Baby-sitting (this despite not really liking children)?  I’m your girl.  I get great pleasure out of doing nice things for the people I love.

12.  I read really, really fast.  Like, Superman fast!  It’s something I’ve always been able to do and I love it.  I can finish a book in a few hours, leaving me able to read MORE!

13.  I have a great memory.  Elephant-like even.

14.  I have really thick, beautiful hair.  Not curly but not straight, it just has a lot of body. 

15.  I have an hourglass figure.  Boobs, small waist, round hips.  Looks great if dressed correctly.

16.  I am all curves!  I feel so womanly, because I’m round in all the right places.

17.  I feel hot and sexy these days.

18.  I love my butt.  It’s the perfect size and shape, I really hope I don’t lose any weight in that particular area.

I’m going to keep adding more.  Every time I think of some other reason that I’m great, I’m going to put it right here. 

What’s on your list?